This is an Insecure Writer's Post outlining my insecurities about both my writing and my blogging. A double whammy.
Last year I cut back on blogging because I spent more time on social media than writing. I had to turn things around. It worked, and I got my third novel written, hoping for a publication date in 2012.
As a result however, my follower count dwindled and for awhile there I lost more followers than I gained. It doesn't look like I'll ever be part of the 1000 Follower Club. But that's okay. I've come to terms with the reality of priorities. As much as I enjoy blogging and would love to see my blog keep growing, it doesn't happen without spending a whole lot of time on networking.
But what takes even more time is writing a really good book, one I can be proud of putting out there. It's one thing to write super fast and get the books out like .99 cookies. And seriously, I wish I could write that fast. I'm jealous of those who can.
But I have to accept that's not me. It takes me a full year to get a manuscript written and polished and ready for editing. That doesn't even count revision time during the editing process.
In 2011 I made a renewed commitment to my writing career and resolved to act more like a professional writer than a professional blogger. I gave up one of my blogs and replaced it with an official website. I reorganized my time to spend more on creative writing and less on posting and commenting. I tried to be subtle about it so no one would really notice.
But it shows in my follower count. Anyone determined to get blog followers must spend time online following and commenting on new blogs. Anyone determined to publish books must spend time offline writing and revising again and again.
Hopefully in 2012 I'll come to terms with the conflict between blogging and writing, and just chill over the whole thing. Meanwhile, I can't seem to help feeling insecure about both.
"Never give up. And most importantly, be true to yourself. Write from your heart, in your own voice, and about what you believe in." ~ Louise Brown
"Write something to suit yourself and many people will like it; write something to suit everybody and scarcely anyone will care for it." ~Jesse Stuart
"A writer's job is to take one thing and make it stand for twenty." ~ Virginia Woolf