As a writer, figuring out what project to work on next is part of the job. As a blogger, wondering what to post can be puzzling. Blogging is personal, and posts with heart are what appeal to me. I appreciate those who share something of themselves: things they're going through, insights, ideas, successes and failures, ways they've changed.
Writing books is not as spontaneous as blog writing. There's a form for each genre which must be respected. A book is a lengthy enterprise, not to be dashed off in a spurt of inspiration. Maybe the first draft can be written like that, but to achieve a professionally finished work, the spurts of inspiration must be supplemented with hours and hours of sometimes perplexing drudgery.
This is why I only write the book I want to write. Whether it's marketable or popular isn't a consideration, at least not in the early stages. John Truby in
The Anatomy of Story, says to "write the story that will change your life."
As I look back on my six published books, I realize each one of them fit this principle. Each one was important for me to write at that particular time, and the writing of it changed my life in a significant way. When I hear from a reader, or see a review that shows me my book also changed a reader's life in a significant way, it means more to me than all the royalties in the world.
One of my absolute favorite reviews on
House of Diamonds exemplifies exactly what I mean:
"As a reader who is struggling to
start a family this story was my worst fears put to paper. But it
reminded me also of the love of a being more powerful than all who does
what is best for us whether we see it or not. It was honestly what I
needed to read to put my current struggles in perspective and I
recommend it to anyone who feels they can't deal with their struggles.
Thank you Ms. Gowen for writing this book, it was just what I needed to
read."
Recently I've been struggling with what to write next. At first I was doing the third book in my Diamond series. After all, it's been four years since the second,
House of Diamonds, came out. And it is supposed to be a Mormon Family Saga. What kind of saga only has two books in it?
Despite it making perfect sense for me to write that next Diamond novel, I just couldn't do it. I finally put the rough draft away for another time. Apparently this isn't the story to change my life at the moment. Whenever I worked on it, I'd get upset, revisiting a time in our family's experience I was not ready to face. I want so badly to write that book but right now I just can't.
Instead I'm eagerly working on something else. That's my clue I'm on the right track--how I'm excited when I think about it, getting ideas, looking forward to my writing time, jotting things down in a notebook when I'm not at my computer.
As writers, we think a lot about sales and marketing. We have to as part of the job. But maybe we should be considering what means so much more than money: changing a life. Especially one's own.
And if in the process our work changes someone else's life for the better, then we have truly done a fine job.
"Every story I write creates me. I write to create myself."
--Octavia E. Butler
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